I’ve never made a big decision. One might think that buying a house, getting married, switching careers (twice), and having kids would qualify as big decisions but I don’t see them that way. I see each of these as a series of tiny little decisions. It took two years to leave my job and become a teacher. I took tiny little steps to get there. Some research into programs, an informational interview here or there, some savings to make sure I could afford the pay cut.

When we engage on the web, we’re either taking the role of the creator or the consumer. We’re either the ones writing the blog posts and directing the videos, or we’re the ones reading and watching them. This role changes often throughout the day. As a consumer, we have a responsibility to change the channel if we’re not into what we’re seeing. Yes, it’s important to develop a world view, to see perspectives that don’t match ours… but instead of complaining about how annoying everyone on Twitter is, better to just whittle down the follower list until the experience becomes better.

In teacher training, a group of us were asked to create a bunch of drawings, each with a different face and on a different sheet of paper, and each one representing a different emotion. After collectively brainstorming about a hundred of emotions on the sheets, we were asked to sort them. “Sort them?” we asked. “By what criteria?” “Just sort them,” our instructors said. So we decided to sort them by negative to positive emotions.

+++ title = “10” date = 2019 +++ Most adults spend their time trying to get back to the state they were in as children, which is fascinating. Through all of our yoga, mediation, walks in the woods, psychedelics… we’re trying to experience the feeling of being in pure amazement, like we’re seeing everything as if it’s the first time. Small children have zero issues feeling this way; it’s their natural state.

+++ title = “10” date = 2019 +++ When I was a kid, from the age of 5 to 18, all I wanted was a girlfriend. I was desperate to be accepted, by anyone. Like many teenagers, I’d do things that I thought would impress girls, but that actually made me look foolish. All because no one ever taught me, explicitly or implicitly, what a relationship actually is. All I had for a model of a teen relationship was my friends.